Why do all good things come to an end?

Honestly what will become of me

don't like reality

It's way too clear to me,

but Really

Life is daily

We are what we don't see

Missed everything day-dreaming

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end?

Flames to dust

Lovers to friends

Why do all good things come to an end?

Come to an end Come to an...

Why do all good thing come to an end?

Come to an end Come to an..

Why do all things come to an end?

Travelling, I Only stop at exits

Wondering if I'll stay

Young and restless

Living this way,

I stress less I want to

Pull away when the dream dies

The pain sets in and

I don't cry

I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end?
Come to an end Come to an...
Why do all good thing come to an end?
Come to an end Come to an..
Why do all things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at the new moon

Whistling a new tune

Hoping it would come soon

And the sun was

Wondering if it should stay away for a day,

'til the feeling went away

And the sky was falling and the clouds were dropping

and the rain forgot how to bring salvation

the dogs were barking at the new moon

Whistling a new tune

Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

This was our last picture together. It was taken on 16th January 2007 at 8.28am at McDonalds KLIA. This was the day that Ciwi flew off to Canada to continue his PhD. We cried our eyes off, we knew that things would change forever, but we did not sit to ponder how much.

And the truth is, so much have changed since that day.

Ciwi been busy with his PhD at University of Calgary, Canada.

Dale got married and now he's busy with his PhD at University of New South Wales, Australia.

Illani got engaged in March this year and when she's married, she's leaving me too.

We stayed in touch thru emails, and occasionally calls each other. Me and Illani still went out together with Azie too, sometimes Illani spent the night at my house. Hmm... 1 by 1, they are leaving. Azie will be going for his PhD too. I guess by next year I'll be alone here.

Best Friends

Friends are someone who are always there

You may have faults but they'll always care

And when you're down and life is bad

They'll share it with you and also be sad

But when you are happy and life is so much fun

They sing with you, and dance, and be out in the sun

1 good friend in the whole of your life

Can get you through troubles and strive

So value your friends with all your heart

and

Don't let anything

Keep you apart

LaLa of LaLaLand

Let me introduce you to my little angel. This is Lala, my fat cat. See that, her head is almost as big as mine. I don't really know how old she is but she's been with us for almost 3 years now, given to me by a friend. She's a drama queen, eats a lot (Whiskas' Ocean Fish), poops a lot and sleeps a lot.

Because of her, all the carpets in my house have been replaced with bamboo mats for easier cleaning as she got her fur all over the house. This year my mom says she plans to change all our plush sofas into wooden ones as she'd scratched them all into shreds. She's very naughty and always up to a mischief or 2 a day, depending on her mood. Yes, she's extremely moody sometimes.

Lala sleeps like a person, she's really fun to watch when she's sleeping. She has nightmares too sometimes and would roll off the table or chair that she was sleeping on. I don't let her sleep with me as she'll be very nosy and starts going through my stuff when I'm sleeping. She's smart, watched tv and knock doors when she's hungry or when she wants to get into any room in the house and also when she's curious of what we're doing in our rooms. She's an attention seeker and loves to be admired. When we have guests at our house, she'll be sure to strut her stuff and show off.

She claimed that this red couch belongs to her, though it does not have her name on it. I bet if she could write, she will write her name on it. If she likes you, she'll let you sit on her couch but if she doesn't, she'll make sure that you get up and find yourself another seat. I have friends whom she had pushed off the chair a few times and lived to tell the tale haha

She hates 2 things; no 1 is other cats, particularly the ones that she thinks are 'too friendly' with us, and no 2 the vacuum cleaner, she'd ran away the moment its on. She likes people who hates cats. She love driving them crazy. My friend Hasfa and my cousins, Kak Chik (Zamrud) and Wana have experienced Lala's torture sessions which left them running and screaming all over the house.

I love you LALA

A Hippo with A Voice

I bought these karaoke CDs during my shopping trip on Labour Day holiday few days ago. I like Rossa (bottom right) but I don't actually like Siti (the other 2) though some of her songs were good. But I have no choice coz people like her songs. What happen was, on 25th April 2008 was our PETRONITA 9th Annual General Meeting. I was suppose to sing 3 songs; More Than Words (solo) and Flying Without Wings and Seasons In The Sun (group). At the very last minute, we were told to add a few Malay song, particularly a Joget song into our performance. Jai provided us with a Siti's Karaoke CD and we tried a few songs. Though we sounded ok, I hated the fact that we're performing this song unprepared and the fact that I don't really know the songs really kills me, plus I was not feeling well and have been having flu and coughing for almost a month.

We still sang the song but I was not very happy with it. I've been singing for quite a few of my company functions, usually to songs that I know by heart. I prefer English songs. I guess I need to add more songs to that and learn more Malay songs. So when I went out shopping, I bought these CDs so that I can practise them, and maybe, actually like them. Some of the songs were ok but the notes are quite high so I need to practise that too. Somebody told me that I will be singing for UTP's Convo this August. So far nobody approach me on that so I think it is just a rumour as usually students did all the singing. I don't want to sing for Convo, I prefer to be in the working committee, which I normally did for the past 3 years. I hope they won't ask me. Azie told me he'd like to try out for Convo's MC and asked me to come along. I don't like to be an MC. I prefer singing but I don't want to let him down. So I guess I'll give it a go. Azie is a very extremely great MC. He's got the complete package for it; the looks, the voice, the charisma and even the suit. Me.. I'm just a fat hippo with a voice.

Here are some of the functions that I have graced with my voice with hehe. These were taken with my camera. There's more but its with the company's photographer. Wonder when I'll get those? Hmm... I wish I could loose some weight. I really looked like a hippo with a microphone, right?

Giorgio Armani Makeover 2007

I had another makeover with Giorgio Armani at KLCC last June 2007. I was in KL for the PETRONAS Corporate Volleyball player selection. After a very tiring and extremely exhausting game in the morning at Titiwangsa, I just needed to blow off some stim, so I went to KLCC alone. When I got there, Armani was having a huge new men's perfume launch, Armani Attitude. I tried it and the smell was superb, plus it came with a makeover package. I decided to buy 1 for Ciwi's birthday. He gave me 2 Elizabeth Arden's perfume (Sunflower and Green Tea) and also a Davidoff Coolwater earlier and I haven't got him any yet. I bought an Armani Code for me. I got so many free perfume samples and an Armani bag, but the most valuable of all is the makeover and the photoshoot that came together with it. Here's the shot. Actually, I only got 1 printed picture. I decided to pay for it and got 6 pictures, both printed and softcopy. So, how do I look? The makeup artist from Bobby Brown had a tough time covering up my sunburnt face. I've been practising hard for the volleyball selection, which caused the burnt-up face, I got the job, plus we were champions later in the games in July 2007.

Christian Dior Makeover Memoirs

While I was shopping, I stopped at Christian Dior at Jusco and tried a new perfume, Poison Midnight. According to the salesgirl, it was out last December but since I haven't been shopping for a while, how would I know that, right? I've got all the Poison perfume except for this one. My favourite is Hypnotic Poison which makes me feel so sexy. This Midnight smells so mysterious. I was thinking of buying it but I've reached my shopping budget so I have to skip.

I want to share some pictures that was taken during a Christian Dior Makeover Promotion in Penang few years back... well, not exactly few years back, I think it was taken between 1999 or 2000. I love makeovers. Its when I get to be beautiful for an hour and nothing else matter. How do I look?

This one wearing the black dress was the one that was submitted for the Ms Dior Contest that day hahaha, but the pic submitted was without the hand. The hand gave me away don't you think so? It shows that the real me is a fatty and not a hottie. The picture was up at the Christian Dior Counter for almost a month. I brought a few friends to see it, they didn't believe it was me, even when the salesgirls said so haha. Am I really that bad in person???? I weigh 132kg at this time too.

Shopping Day 1/5/2008

I shopped till I dropped today. Really great. I got my 'kutu' money. So I've already planned to go all out shopping. I went out with Aaryenne and Heri Roziana, the Petroleum technicians. We left at 1pm and began our shopping in Jusco. It was filled to the brim with people. We had lunch at Secret Recipe. I bought a trolley full of stuff, cat food, detergent, shoes, books, some stationaries, and other stuff. I can't find my memory stick adapter so I can't transfer the pictures. I'll do it later. After Jusco, we continued our exploration to Tesco where more stuff were bought and more money spent. We got home at 11pm.

Iron Man

I was suppose to go out for a blind date on 30/5/08, but at the very last minute, he said he can't make it. Cold feet maybe??? I was so hyped up to go out. I haven't been to Ipoh for months coz I was extremely busy with work and study. My last movie was Jumper which I watched on its opening night on Valentine's Day. That was my first movie this year. I'm getting more and more boring these days right? I guess all work and no play makes me an extremely boring girl huh.

So, to keep my merriment going, I still went out. Azie called asking about plans so I told him, lets go for movie coz Iron Man was opening that night at TGV. We got Illani and Jai to join in. So the 4 of us headed to TGV at 11.15pm to watch the midnight show at 12.20am. It was awesome. I love it so much. But I wish there's more plot to it, but looking at the ending, I think will be expecting Iron Man 2 soon. The music scores were great too. I'm looking forward to download them. I'd recommend everyone to go and watch it. As usuall all Marvel adaptations were always great.

After that, we went to McDonalds. Its not that we're that hungry, its 3.00am for God sake. Its just that I need to fulfill my craving for McD. I've not had my usuall McD fix for quite a while hehe... now you know how I manage to "maintain" my figure hahaha ;) Thanx Jai for 'belanja-ing' us.

We got home at 5.00am. Suprisingly, my house was not dark as usuall. There's so many motobikes parked at my space, I had to park outside. What happened? When I got in, I was welcomed by my brother and his friends shouting in front of the tv, watching the Liverpool-Chelsea game. Boys will be boys. I'm off to bed. My room is just next to the tv room, their cheers and shouts shook the entire planet. Luckily I was so sleepy, I slept like a rock.... and woke up at 12noon the next day... hahaha some 'anak dara' I am. Whatever!!!!!!

The problems with me are....

I can pretty much do whatever I want, learn whatever I want. I can ride horses, archery, I can play so many sports; volleyball, squash, swimming, hockey, futsal, bowling, netball, a lil bit of tennis and badminton. I jogged as much as I can. I drive a 4WD. I snorkel sometimes. I've climbed hills and cross rivers on ropes. I've done parasailing and absailing. I can fix computers, tvs, dvd, and some electrical stuff at home. I also fix furniture sometimes. I can sew with a sewing machine. I can do cross stiches and I can knit a tablecloth. I play guitar and piano.

But there's 3 things that I can't do. Can you guess?


1) I can't cook eventhough my mom owns a restaurant


2) I don't know how to apply makeup on my own face


3) Despite all my sports activities, I can't loose weight

So, on some weekends, if I don't have classes in UiTM, my mom will force me to cook. I don't know why, I just don't like cooking. I love eating but what is the point of learning cooking when you know you won't be getting married anytime soon? But just to make my mom happy, I try learning a few of her recipe, like this one, her famous 'Ayam Masak Merah'. I cooked this a few months ago and I already forgot the recipe...hmmm... I guess I need a hell lot of motivation here

I tried learning how to apply makeup too. Its just so difficult, believe me, learning to ride a horse is much easier compared to this. You have to learn how to draw the eyebrow, apply the eyeshadow, foundation, blusher.. bla bla bla... I just could not make sense of any of it. Why is it so difficult. This 2 pictures below was taken last Wednesday. My officemate Azwa was teaching me how to apply makeup. She applied for me the whole week last week. So, how do I look?

Loosing weight??!! Hmm lets not talk about that or I'll go mad!!!!

Nak nangisssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate exams!!! But what to do? I still have to go through it. Today was my psycho exam. I don't think I did ok. I know I could do better. The thing is that almost all the essay questions came from the last chapter of the book... which sadly I did not even open. I read the whole book, except the last chapter. All the Piaget, Vygotsky, Skinner, Erikson, Thorndike, Atkinson, Bandura.. all did not come out!!! What a waste of my sleeping time. Luckily Pavlov and Maslow came out or I'll die!!! I finished my paper 1 hour early, but I did not go out of the exam hall. I just sat there and stared at the clock.I felt so sad. I missed 1 chapter... just 1... and look at what it caused me. Uwaaaa!!!!!!!! I want ice cream!! Immediately after exam, I sms my friends, Illani and Azie, with plans to go out tonight. Lani was ok but Azie got some presentation that he have to vet or something. It was suppose to be over at 6pm but until now, its already 9pm and its still not over. So ice cream will have to postpone to tomorrow. I'm going to continue blogging until I finish this whole can of raisins. I'm not going to stop until I finish it all up. Do you know why I have this huge can of raisins? I have to munch on something when I study, if not, my brain just won't function. Its a bad habit, I know, but I need to study. My snacking habits have gone healthier these days. On my 1st sem, I was munching Cheezels, bags and bags of them in a day ya!! On my 2nd sem, I turned to my Tiger biscuits for the courage and strength to face my exams haha. This sem, I turned to raisins. Actually, few months back, I started craving for potatoes (wedges, salad, whipped..u name it) but I was kinda worried when my jeans became a lil tight. So I changed to raisins. It was tough at 1st but I managed pretty well. Ciwi says I should be taking dates but I can't find any. Its not Ramadhan so its quite difficult to find those. Hmm.. can't wait for ice cream tomorrow. Chocolate chip mint... yum yum..my favourite.

Concentrate Girl!!!!!!

Halo nyonya!!!!! Stop surfing the net and start studying ya!!!!

Tomorrow is your Educational Psychology exam!!!!!

GO STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I miss BOWLING so much

I was supposed to to go for a PETRONAS Corporate Team Bowling selection last Saturday but I couldn't make it. My exam is next Tuesday and I've been busy juggling work and study for the whole semester. The last time I played bowling was in January 2008 and that was a very long time ya. Just look at my bowling set, they are sitting there on their corner, gathering dust. I bought those on 2nd June 2007. I have to admit that I'm not that great in bowling, but I'm not that bad either. Last year I won quite a few competitions (well... no 11 with a prize still considered as winning right, compared to going home empty handed hehe).

The most memorable one would be during the KSKKU Bowling Tournament in May 2007. It was a clean sweep. I won best group, best female and high game female. The prizes were trophys and holiday package and restaurant vouchers and a rice cooker and a huge hamper which my mom took away so that I don't stuff myself with it. It was great. I had the best teammates ever. My old teammates decided to split a few days before the game and the new ones called me in last minute. I hope this year we'll play again.

Earlier in January 2008, I suffered another temporary memory loss. It happened during a bowling game, I was swinging the ball and suddenly it hit me behind my right knee. Then I stop, and suddenly, I forgot how to bowl, just like that. I was shocked and so were my friends. I tried playing a few times after that but I've lost my touch. I hope this is temporary. I need my touch to win. I've worked so hard to learn it, it can't just leave me like that. That is also 1 of the reasons why I was afraid to go for the selection last weekend coz I don't know how I will do and I don't think I can handle public humiliation a few days before my exam. Might as well let it go. Its ok darling, there's always next year... and the next... and the year after... and after.... I'll start bowling after my exams ok.

Study Study Study

I just submitted my 'Teaching English Through Drama' portfolio just now. Luckily my lecturer was not mad at me. I was supposed to submit it last Friday but I was busy with the PETRONITA 9th Annual General Meeting. This is the first time I was an Event Manager for an event in UTP and the guest of honour was the VP of HRM PETRONAS, Datuk Ainon Marziah Wahi. I was so nervous the whole week, plus I got to finish up my literature review for Reading and also the Drama portfolio. I've been running here and there the whole semester, I am officially a race horse now, no longer the beautiful unicorn. I wish my life was just as easy as everybody else.

Back to studying missy or you'll be dead. Tomorrow is my Educational Psychology exam. I actually liked the class, but I hated the research and assignments. I wish there were an easier way to learn psycho without turning into one.

Ciwi's done with his exam. Mine will be over on 9th May. Then I plan to go for a holiday, preferably by the beach or river or, even better, on a cruise ship. I NEED A VACATION!!!!

Happy Belated Birthday My Laling Sia

Sia Chee Wee is the world best friend award winner. He is the bestest of the best buddies I've ever had in my entire life. I miss him so much. He's in Canada now doing his PhD. His birthday was on 18th Feb. I wanted to sing you a very special birthday song Laling, I manage to do that over the phone, but wrong time.. hehe... I always messed up when it comes to time zones. I wanted to give you a very nice birthday gift but I could not think of any. What would be the best gift for you? I really don't know. You gave me a wonderful mp3 player for my birthday in January 2008 and I love it so much. What do you want for your birthday? I know its kinda late but I still want to give you 1. Please let me know.

This picture was taken during Chee Wee's birthday in 2006, the last birthday that we celebrated together before he flew to Canada. We had so much fun during the steamboat dinner at MP with Dale and Yee Sing. Since Chee Wee left, I haven't been to MP for quite a while. Things were just not the same without you buddy.

My Angiogram 16th March 2007

I was born fat. I've been fat all my life. There was never a day that I was thin. My weight was over 100kg even when I was 12 years old, and at that time I was already 5 foot 4 inches tall. Now I'm 5 foot 7 inches tall, weight 110kg. I was 132kg last 2005. I went on a diet and jog daily, and for almost a year I lost 31kg. But after that, the weight just won't go lower, I don't know why. What I do know is that all that can go to hell!!!!!!!!!!!

I didn't jog anymore now. On 16th March 2007, I was jogging as usual at 6.30am at the field in UTP when I got chestpains. I could not breathe. I quickly got home, changed and went off to work. I thought it will be over but it didn't, it kept getting sharper and more painfull, I felt like I want to cry. Luckly, on of the Director in my office suggested I went to Ipoh Specialist and see his Cardiologist. He even gave him a call and told him that I'm coming. I got to the hospital, did all the test and failed them all, then the doc said I had to go for an angiogram.

See that? That's what my heart looked like during the angiograms. It was performed to visualize the blood in the coronary arteries. A long, thin, flexible tube called a catheter is used to administer the x-ray contrast agent at the desired area to be visualized. The catheter is threaded into an artery in my right forearm, and the tip is advanced through the arterial system into one of the two major coronary arteries. X-ray images of the transient radiocontrast distribution within the blood flowing within the coronary arteries allows visualization of the size of the artery openings. As you can see in the picture, mine is perfectly fine. No blockage... YIPPEE!!!!!!

Though docs says my heart is alright, he did say that my chestpains were due to stress. Well, I am kinda stressed up lately. My job seems to be more demanding and my studies are really killing me. Can you imagine, my first semester in UiTM and I already gone down 'angio'-ing myself. I got 5 years to go ya!!! Pray hard that I'll be alright.