The problems with me are....

I can pretty much do whatever I want, learn whatever I want. I can ride horses, archery, I can play so many sports; volleyball, squash, swimming, hockey, futsal, bowling, netball, a lil bit of tennis and badminton. I jogged as much as I can. I drive a 4WD. I snorkel sometimes. I've climbed hills and cross rivers on ropes. I've done parasailing and absailing. I can fix computers, tvs, dvd, and some electrical stuff at home. I also fix furniture sometimes. I can sew with a sewing machine. I can do cross stiches and I can knit a tablecloth. I play guitar and piano.

But there's 3 things that I can't do. Can you guess?


1) I can't cook eventhough my mom owns a restaurant


2) I don't know how to apply makeup on my own face


3) Despite all my sports activities, I can't loose weight

So, on some weekends, if I don't have classes in UiTM, my mom will force me to cook. I don't know why, I just don't like cooking. I love eating but what is the point of learning cooking when you know you won't be getting married anytime soon? But just to make my mom happy, I try learning a few of her recipe, like this one, her famous 'Ayam Masak Merah'. I cooked this a few months ago and I already forgot the recipe...hmmm... I guess I need a hell lot of motivation here

I tried learning how to apply makeup too. Its just so difficult, believe me, learning to ride a horse is much easier compared to this. You have to learn how to draw the eyebrow, apply the eyeshadow, foundation, blusher.. bla bla bla... I just could not make sense of any of it. Why is it so difficult. This 2 pictures below was taken last Wednesday. My officemate Azwa was teaching me how to apply makeup. She applied for me the whole week last week. So, how do I look?

Loosing weight??!! Hmm lets not talk about that or I'll go mad!!!!

Nak nangisssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate exams!!! But what to do? I still have to go through it. Today was my psycho exam. I don't think I did ok. I know I could do better. The thing is that almost all the essay questions came from the last chapter of the book... which sadly I did not even open. I read the whole book, except the last chapter. All the Piaget, Vygotsky, Skinner, Erikson, Thorndike, Atkinson, Bandura.. all did not come out!!! What a waste of my sleeping time. Luckily Pavlov and Maslow came out or I'll die!!! I finished my paper 1 hour early, but I did not go out of the exam hall. I just sat there and stared at the clock.I felt so sad. I missed 1 chapter... just 1... and look at what it caused me. Uwaaaa!!!!!!!! I want ice cream!! Immediately after exam, I sms my friends, Illani and Azie, with plans to go out tonight. Lani was ok but Azie got some presentation that he have to vet or something. It was suppose to be over at 6pm but until now, its already 9pm and its still not over. So ice cream will have to postpone to tomorrow. I'm going to continue blogging until I finish this whole can of raisins. I'm not going to stop until I finish it all up. Do you know why I have this huge can of raisins? I have to munch on something when I study, if not, my brain just won't function. Its a bad habit, I know, but I need to study. My snacking habits have gone healthier these days. On my 1st sem, I was munching Cheezels, bags and bags of them in a day ya!! On my 2nd sem, I turned to my Tiger biscuits for the courage and strength to face my exams haha. This sem, I turned to raisins. Actually, few months back, I started craving for potatoes (wedges, salad, whipped..u name it) but I was kinda worried when my jeans became a lil tight. So I changed to raisins. It was tough at 1st but I managed pretty well. Ciwi says I should be taking dates but I can't find any. Its not Ramadhan so its quite difficult to find those. Hmm.. can't wait for ice cream tomorrow. Chocolate chip mint... yum yum..my favourite.

Concentrate Girl!!!!!!

Halo nyonya!!!!! Stop surfing the net and start studying ya!!!!

Tomorrow is your Educational Psychology exam!!!!!

GO STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I miss BOWLING so much

I was supposed to to go for a PETRONAS Corporate Team Bowling selection last Saturday but I couldn't make it. My exam is next Tuesday and I've been busy juggling work and study for the whole semester. The last time I played bowling was in January 2008 and that was a very long time ya. Just look at my bowling set, they are sitting there on their corner, gathering dust. I bought those on 2nd June 2007. I have to admit that I'm not that great in bowling, but I'm not that bad either. Last year I won quite a few competitions (well... no 11 with a prize still considered as winning right, compared to going home empty handed hehe).

The most memorable one would be during the KSKKU Bowling Tournament in May 2007. It was a clean sweep. I won best group, best female and high game female. The prizes were trophys and holiday package and restaurant vouchers and a rice cooker and a huge hamper which my mom took away so that I don't stuff myself with it. It was great. I had the best teammates ever. My old teammates decided to split a few days before the game and the new ones called me in last minute. I hope this year we'll play again.

Earlier in January 2008, I suffered another temporary memory loss. It happened during a bowling game, I was swinging the ball and suddenly it hit me behind my right knee. Then I stop, and suddenly, I forgot how to bowl, just like that. I was shocked and so were my friends. I tried playing a few times after that but I've lost my touch. I hope this is temporary. I need my touch to win. I've worked so hard to learn it, it can't just leave me like that. That is also 1 of the reasons why I was afraid to go for the selection last weekend coz I don't know how I will do and I don't think I can handle public humiliation a few days before my exam. Might as well let it go. Its ok darling, there's always next year... and the next... and the year after... and after.... I'll start bowling after my exams ok.

Study Study Study

I just submitted my 'Teaching English Through Drama' portfolio just now. Luckily my lecturer was not mad at me. I was supposed to submit it last Friday but I was busy with the PETRONITA 9th Annual General Meeting. This is the first time I was an Event Manager for an event in UTP and the guest of honour was the VP of HRM PETRONAS, Datuk Ainon Marziah Wahi. I was so nervous the whole week, plus I got to finish up my literature review for Reading and also the Drama portfolio. I've been running here and there the whole semester, I am officially a race horse now, no longer the beautiful unicorn. I wish my life was just as easy as everybody else.

Back to studying missy or you'll be dead. Tomorrow is my Educational Psychology exam. I actually liked the class, but I hated the research and assignments. I wish there were an easier way to learn psycho without turning into one.

Ciwi's done with his exam. Mine will be over on 9th May. Then I plan to go for a holiday, preferably by the beach or river or, even better, on a cruise ship. I NEED A VACATION!!!!

Happy Belated Birthday My Laling Sia

Sia Chee Wee is the world best friend award winner. He is the bestest of the best buddies I've ever had in my entire life. I miss him so much. He's in Canada now doing his PhD. His birthday was on 18th Feb. I wanted to sing you a very special birthday song Laling, I manage to do that over the phone, but wrong time.. hehe... I always messed up when it comes to time zones. I wanted to give you a very nice birthday gift but I could not think of any. What would be the best gift for you? I really don't know. You gave me a wonderful mp3 player for my birthday in January 2008 and I love it so much. What do you want for your birthday? I know its kinda late but I still want to give you 1. Please let me know.

This picture was taken during Chee Wee's birthday in 2006, the last birthday that we celebrated together before he flew to Canada. We had so much fun during the steamboat dinner at MP with Dale and Yee Sing. Since Chee Wee left, I haven't been to MP for quite a while. Things were just not the same without you buddy.

My Angiogram 16th March 2007

I was born fat. I've been fat all my life. There was never a day that I was thin. My weight was over 100kg even when I was 12 years old, and at that time I was already 5 foot 4 inches tall. Now I'm 5 foot 7 inches tall, weight 110kg. I was 132kg last 2005. I went on a diet and jog daily, and for almost a year I lost 31kg. But after that, the weight just won't go lower, I don't know why. What I do know is that all that can go to hell!!!!!!!!!!!

I didn't jog anymore now. On 16th March 2007, I was jogging as usual at 6.30am at the field in UTP when I got chestpains. I could not breathe. I quickly got home, changed and went off to work. I thought it will be over but it didn't, it kept getting sharper and more painfull, I felt like I want to cry. Luckly, on of the Director in my office suggested I went to Ipoh Specialist and see his Cardiologist. He even gave him a call and told him that I'm coming. I got to the hospital, did all the test and failed them all, then the doc said I had to go for an angiogram.

See that? That's what my heart looked like during the angiograms. It was performed to visualize the blood in the coronary arteries. A long, thin, flexible tube called a catheter is used to administer the x-ray contrast agent at the desired area to be visualized. The catheter is threaded into an artery in my right forearm, and the tip is advanced through the arterial system into one of the two major coronary arteries. X-ray images of the transient radiocontrast distribution within the blood flowing within the coronary arteries allows visualization of the size of the artery openings. As you can see in the picture, mine is perfectly fine. No blockage... YIPPEE!!!!!!

Though docs says my heart is alright, he did say that my chestpains were due to stress. Well, I am kinda stressed up lately. My job seems to be more demanding and my studies are really killing me. Can you imagine, my first semester in UiTM and I already gone down 'angio'-ing myself. I got 5 years to go ya!!! Pray hard that I'll be alright.